tyipcal LOVE story = (

hey.....people......today was a bitch i hate how everything was.....i was tiered and high

whose got you writing their name on a sheet

of paper cause you love him so much.

whose got you looking around

cause you killed someone and now theres someone looking for you.

whose got you screaming so loud

cause your only 15 and your fucking a guy that makes your mom proud.

whose got you lying to God cause

you know it will hurt you if your telling the truth.

whose playing who what should you do

cause you cant be a pimp and a

Prostitute too.

 

whose got you missing him badly cause

you got pregnant by him and now his kissing your daddy.

 

whose got you skipping around when you voice is hight pitch and you have a broken wrist.

 

whose got you bleaching your skin

cause its too dark and you want to fit in.

 

who told you that th "N" word was good

cause your black and you say you could.

 

who say you cant see the light the white man try to

tell us is right.

 

who say you cant say how you feel when the truth hurts

its true because so long i was so in love with you so i thought.

 

you got you, you said you, your playing you, you told you, thats whose got you.

 

The day I met you I found a friend - And a friendship that I pray will never end. Your smile - so sweet And so bright - Kept me going When day was as dark as night. You never ever judged me, You understood my sorrow. Then you told me it needn't be that way And gave me the hope of a better tomorrow. You were always there for me, I knew I could count on you. You gave me advice and encouragement Whenever I didn't know what to do. You helped me learn to love myself You made life seem so good. You said I can do anything I put my mind to And suddenly I knew I could. There were times when we didn't see eye to eye And there were days when both of us cried. But even so we made it through: Our friendship hasn't yet died. Circumstances have pulled us apart, We are separated by many miles. Truly, the only thing that keeps me going Is my treasured memory of your smile. This friendship we share Is so precious to me, I hope it grows and flourishes And lasts unto infinity. You are so extra-special to me And so this to you I really must tell: You are my one true friend, My Guardian Angel. Our friendship is one-in-a-million So let's hold on to it and each other. We cannot let this chance of pure bliss fly away For there will never be another. I love you. I will always love you.

I searched among the card displays, To see if I could find, A little something that would say Just what was on my mind. However there was not a one, That captured it just right, For no one else can understand Just what I'd like to write. I even find it difficult To try to write it down, For how do I portray to you, The love that I have known? I close my eyes and what I see, Is someone I adore; A person who is beautiful, Right down into their soul. Mere words cannot describe The many qualities you show, The love and caring nature that You share with those who know. Your kind and gentle temperament, Your sweet angelic smile, Your softly spoken sentiments, That reach across the miles. Your smile and laugh that sparkle with The softness of your sighs, The way your face lights up a room ... That twinkle in your eye. The loving gestures through the years, That quickly come to mind, For always you've a gentle word To calm and soothe I find. I struggle and I search to try To find some words anew ... And yet I cannot capture All the things that make you you. I shall therefore, be satisfied That you must simply know, Just how I feel about you, For with words I cannot show.

I look up as a tear rolls slowly down my cheek I think about better days and wonder if I'll feel that way again you look at me with those eyes I know so well always serious, so deep and insightful as though you're always in control But not today not now Now you look so scared like for once you don't have the answer I gaze at you looking deep into those hazel eyes Hoping to understand why you've said those things you did I wonder for a moment if this is all a dream if I shall wake in the morning and be relieved you look at me with a confusion I have never seen slowly pull me towards you and wipe the tears from my cheek

i feel very lazy lately. i really cant wait until thursday so i can chill with my fam....and friends eat some food. i cant sand this school.....i dont like school at all rite now.......its weird cuz when i was younger i loved to go to school......i was number one in my class.......but i started dicthing and everything went down hill from there........people might ask.......WHY IN THE WORLD DID U DO THAT?????.......but i think i have a simple explaination to why i did that.......u see i was going to my class till i missed a lot of days and didnt want to go to class becuz i didnt want someone to say that they did see me at school, seeing that i was really was at the school on the days i were suppoes to not be there.........so now i'm stuck in a deep situation that i dont think i can ever get out of......but if i believe in myself....dig deep enough i can come out of this......shit that i got into......and u know how bad shit is.....it stinks .......and it hurts to get out but when yr done u seem to feel 10 lbs lighter.......as soon as i gradeuate i will fill 10 lbs lighter.....but for rite now i'm still taking a shit.

 

 

 

WHOES STILL TAKING THERE SHIT!!!!

why do i feel like i'm doin things wrong. just yesterday i came home and my dad was like bitching at me and stuff and then he goin to ask me was i mad at him.......HELL ya i was mad at him......but i couldnt tell him that becuz his ass would start bitching at me some more and honestly i didnt want to hear his voice and smell his fucked up breath.......i know some day i will miss that and him bitching but for rite now i cant stand it......he askes me if i love him yea i do but theres somedays where its not goin to be peaches and cream.

 

i was so depress last nite.....i guess its becuz of my dad and douglas i just really want to be wit him but he just dosent see that......and my cuzin is a hore and i might not graduate.....maybe i should being more positive. KEEP IT POSITIVE!!!!

 

God is love so live with love in yr heart!!!

FEMALE PLAYER

 

You call yourself a player

Because it seems you played a few…

 

You didn’t seem to realize it was me playing you.

It’s true you were good at your game and came out a winner

 

But compared to me you were still a just beginner. There are still lots of learning and you ain’t shit yet!!!

 

If you didn’t give a fuck, then why are you so upset??

Although you tried to play me, things didn’t end up your way. Cuz you’re on your knees begging me to stay…

 

How dose it feel to love? How does it feel to be a failure?

How does it feel to be played by an OG female player!!

DON’T FALL IN LOVE!!

 

Have you ever fallen in love, but know they didn’t care?

 

Have you ever felt like crying, but know you’d get no where?

 

Have you ever watched them walk away, not wanting them to go?

 

 

And whispered ‘I LOVE YOU’ not wanting them to know?

 

You cried all night in misery, and almost went insane.

 

There’s nothing in this world that cause so much pain.

 

If I could choose between LOVE and DEATH I think I rather DIE.

 

Love is fun, but it hurts too much and the price you pay is too DAMN high.

 

So I say don’t fall in love you’ll be hurt before it’s through.

 

You see my friend I ought to know….

 

I FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU!!

 

FORGET HIM

 

Forget his name

Forget his face

Forget his kiss

His warm embrace

Forget the love that you once knew

Remember he was someone new

Forget him they played your song

Remember when you cried all night long

Forget how close you once were

Remember he has chosen her

Forget how you memorized his walk

Forget the way he use to talk

Forget the thing he use to say

Remember he has gone away

Forget his laugh

Forget his grin

Forget the dimples in his chin

Forget the way he held you tight

Remember he’s with her tonight

Forget the time that went so fast

Forget the that moved, it’s past

Forget he said he’d leave you never

Remember he’s gone for ever

 

An echo fades into the night,
an eerie mournful sound.
A shooting star disappears from sight,
and I crumble to the ground.
There is no life within this garden;
my sobs are the only sound.
I have poisoned the honeyed fountain
where your love could be found.

Dazed, I stare at the stars above,
my grieving howls fill the night!
Unintended betrayal of love
has hidden you from my sight.
I remember how it used to be
when we shared our fears and delights.
You are a treasured friend to me.
How can I make things right?

Feeling afraid, cold and lonely,
I long to tell you how I feel,
but you don’t want to hear me.
The pain for you is much too real.
Should I back away and build a wall
and block away how I feel?
Or, should I give you a call?
We both need some time to heal.

An echo fades into the night
as our relationship disappears.
How do I know what is right?
How can I ease my fears?
If I do call you again,
would the old wounds reappear?
I can’t stand to cause you pain.
Hurting you again is my worst fear!

There is a storm in my heart
It tears my inside apart
I am bleeding and I am hurt
Like a wingless little bird

Then it turns dark
And for a moment I see
The pain that was inside of me
And on a journey I embark

In search of answers
In search of truth
In search of understanding
In search of you

My guiding star in darkness
Like a little stream in the desert
Everything about you seems flawless
But that is what causes the hurt

Your perfect features do not belong to me
You do not deserve my chains
You need to live and see
What it means to be free

So spread your wings and fly away
For I can not fulfill your dream
But if you should fall one day
I'll guide you and be that little stream

So go and discover it all
And know that wherever you go
Whatever you do and might feel
The only thing you need to do is call

"When You're Gone"

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now


When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now


We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

You leaned over and you kissed me
I felt my knees go weak
You leaned over and you kissed me
I couldn't even speak
You leaned over and you kissed me
With a passion flowing free
You leaned over and you kissed me
Sparks flew that we could see
You leaned over and you kissed me
A touch so soft and tender
You leaned over and you kissed me
A kiss I would remember
You leaned over and you kissed me
I'm sure I kissed you back
You leaned over and you kissed me
With the fire no kiss should lack
You leaned over and you kissed me
You left me wanting more
You leaned over and you kissed me
My soul you did explore
You leaned over and you kissed me
My heart no longer full of pain
You leaned over and you kissed me
Darling, kiss me once again

You're the one who's by my side
when no one else is there.
You're the one I can always count on,
You always seem to care.

You help me through
the tough times,
and when I've lost all hope,
You cry with me at sad times,
and laugh at all my jokes.

You never seem to judge me
or ever put me down,
You put a smile on my face,
When ever you see a frown.

You're better than a brother,
You're more than just my boyfriend,
You have a special place in my heart,
That's why your my Best Friend.

i'm upset cuz my dad did the most fucked up thing ever. he lied on my boyfriends grandma, a lady to whom he never met, ever. but he did it to make me feel that he's parents dont like me. he made it seem that they dont him around me and he made it seem that they were so mad and didnt let him be free just becuz they're chistains. it crazy how much yr parents will do to make u break up with the one u love.

 

well guess what dear OLD dad, i'm not ever gonna break up with Malcolm. i'm going to marry him.

this is just a typical love story. how someone falls in love and then the person dosent love her/ him back, and then later he/she wants him/her back. but they dont want him/her cuz they're married now, so now they're tyring to break the two married people up, and convensing him/her to take him/her back.

man if everything was like the movies, it would be wonders, but its not. i wish guys could go through wut we go through everyday when a guy tells us they think were cute, lead u on them shut u out as soon as they get they want out of u. 

i'll be alone for ever. i guess my dads rite, God has someone waiting for me out there he just hasnt found me yet. i guess u have to go through all these bad rlationships to actually get to that rite one. i hope that will be soon, i'm NOT GOOD AT BEING ALONE!!!!

 

 

TRUE LOVE WAITS!!!

: )

been through just about everything that i could go through when it comes to relationships. dont know what i was missing or why i aint listening when i told myself that was it, now here i go hurt again cause of my curisosity now thats its over what else could be, he had to cheat.

i made a promise never to settle why didnt i keep it, cause i hated the heartbreak, crying and cheating, the fooling around.

such a shame in away cause i feel that i may not ever find the right one for, did i leave him, he is right in front of my face so will my true love ever be? why would i go on search again? cause i know what the end will be. what GOOD is love when it keeps on HURTING ME!!

 

yep!! i'm a DUMB ONE!! LOL

OMG!!! yesterday after school, i went to Urban Leauge, urban leauge is a place where anyone can go to get help on homework, projects, GED's, ect. so anyways i went there just to get on the computer(MYSPACE) i got on and i was just lookin at Kenneth's page and i was think should i send him a message or should my brother(ME PRETENDING TO BE HIM). so i decided to send Kenneth a message from my brother's page. i sent it and he read it, but didnt send anything back. i mean i didnt say anything about how much i like him, i just was asking wut was up wit him and me(SIS). so then Lauren my BF said send me a message then send i'll forward it to him. so i do that, she sends it and then he says, which makes me REALLY confused, "call me!" i'm like "WHAT!" i couldnt believe it, so i tell her to tell him that she didnt write that my freind did, and he still says, "call me!" so eventully she dose. so there talk, i dont know nuthin, i cant hear anything. so then she gets off the phone. she says, oh he dosent want a relationship, he was lookin for a female friend, someone to talk and chill wit. and that he didnt think i would fall in love wit him so fast and he didnt want to hurt my feelings. then she say he never said he didnt want u to stop talkin to him, he still wants to talk to u, but just on his own time.

so for now on i wont call him til he calls me, just to give him time come over this whole thing. so last night i went to whole night not callin him, i did kinda waited for till 11:00 to see if he would call me. cuz his phone's mins. arent free till 9:00 so i waited but he didnt call, i'm ok wit thou.

i guess i'm done wit him, till hes ready!!!

= (

so the whole day yesterday i was like MANNN i cant wait to call him, or him call me. i just need to talk to him about wuts goin on. i mean dose he like me???

 

i tryed today to go to his house but he still didnt answer the phone. i dont like calling in the morning but, he doesnt call me at night and he SURE dosent answer the phone when i call, so i'm still stuck in this CIRCLE OF CONFUSTION of wut to do. no matter how mucj i write and talk about it i still dont get it. and its not like i can cry about it either, cuz if u think about it, hes not crying over me so theres reason y i should, rite??

i just want him to be wit me so bad, if i dont have him i dont want anyone else. and to think i was saying the same thing about Dominic. i dont know y i dont like him like that any more, i use to be so in love wit him and now it seems like Kenneth got in my head and drained Dominic out of my head like a clogged sink.

 

ok now i'm really stuck like even more....its between DOMINIC and KENNETH

see if u seen dominic u would be... y dose she like him?? but if u saw kenneth u would like DAMNNNNNNNN i see y she's so fuckin sprung

I LOVE THEM BOTH THE SAME , WELL ONE MORE THAN THE OTHER, U GUESS WHO!!! LOL